Wednesday 25 May 2011

25/05 - True tragic beautiful love.

Monday 2 May 2011

02/05 -Oh; Hi There.

Oh. Shit. Is that the date?
Long time no see, Hey?
I'm not going to make up any excuses, but I was defending the world from all evil, fighting off all the evil spirits etc etc in my absence. I can confirm, it is no coincidence I am restarting my blog on the day that Bin Laden was pronounced shot dead; Make of that as you will...

Monday 21 February 2011

21/02- Disney.

Heyyy!.
So; today I went into town again, and did my business as per (returning some stuff, not overly exciting to be honest..),  And I was half an hour early, but I went over to my friends house anyway; nothing like being lazy to walk back home.
Today I got educated in Disney films, because no, I did not have them in my childhood. And yes, I know I was deprived.
we watched:






Bambi was rubbish. Not going to lie; nothing even happened for one and a half hours, if someone asked me the plot all I could say it that it rained, the mum dies, and who I thought were female animals turn out to be male.
The lion king and Aladdin are amazing though. But I did really want to watch the Jungle book and Peter Pan...
' Second star to the right and straight on till morning'.
Also, we ordered four 18" pizzas.. for ten people.
Seems like too much; but it all got eaten pretty fast, good thing I didn't have breakfast or lunch today I guess.

Sunday 20 February 2011

20/02- Murder?.

hi;
Today I woke up late, and wondered into two.
I met up with a friend and we had a great catch up; and that was about it.
I just re-dyed my hair, and my bath looks like I have casually murdered someone..
That is about all for today; nothing interesting, and  am tired now. Good night!.

Saturday 19 February 2011

19/02- Interrobanged‽‽.

Hello;
I just ( I say just, this was bout 5 hours ago) got back from my intense trip to IKEA.


HELL YEAH YOU HEARD THAT RIGHT!
(I didn't mean to type that in caps but I am too lazy to re-type it, so instead I am typing this much longer than what I would have re-typed  explanation.. They should add a caps button of the Keyboard, where it changed upper case to lower case, and lower case to upper case.  I= So genius).
Prepare to be bombarded with representational pictures of my day..
So, after a two hour journey into wherever Ikea is..
We entered the store , at which I was automatically reminded of the scene from 500 days of summer, where they go into a furniture store with show rooms, pretending its their house and its so cute.  "Darling; there is a Chinese family in or Bathroom.".
So yes.
After wondering around for AGES wanting to buy everything; we came across the wardrobes, so I whipped out my measuring tape and got going!
this is the one I got because:
A. It was cheap.
B. Its big.
C. It was cheap.
D. It was the only one that fit in my smalllll room.
E. It was cheap.
                                          
So, then I went on a hunt for the biggest clear plastic box I could fins So I could convert it into Timothy's cage because he is the only hedgehog on the earth for persists on climbing EVERYTHING.
At which point I had no luck, because everything is sectioned into "rooms", And what room would you place a huge-as-fuck plastic box in? It was like a magic Easter egg hunt.
We then hit the dining area (like, the actually eating area in Ikea, not the show rooms..), And having never been to Ikea I opted for the world famous "Ikea meatballs":



That dish looks about a hundred times nicer than what I was given.. Mine was swimming in so much oil that it wasn't even able to mix into the sauce..
And by the end of it I felt physically sick.
After this I bought some Daim bars (Nomnomnom.) and tried one of their biscuits, which they shouldn't let people try because they look nice, but after trying them it made me not want to buy them.
So then we bought everything and went home.

And I just realised, I haven't had dinner, I have been waiting and have realised, apparently dinner is self service and is not being cooked today apparently. So I open up the fridge and well; bam, there is nothing there. I say nothing, By nothing I mean nothing edible.
And by nothing edible I mean that gross food only one family member uses for sandwiches, or some crazy rubbish like that.

ALSO.
Interrobang!!!
Shit yeah. Sounds like the dirtiest and most bad ass type of punctuation there possibly could ever be..
Because a cross between an explanation mark and a question mark is the greatest invention (Punctuation-wise) EVER!.
! + ? = 
Interrobang  Yeah!.
You've just be taught the most intense powerful punctuation of all time by your's truly.
You just got interrobanged.  
Use it wisely my friends. 
(And yes, it is actually a real punctuation, kind of.)
Heres some facts fo' you non believers!
American Martin K. Speckter invented the interrobang in 1962.
In 1968, an interrobang key was available on some Remington typewriters. During the 1970s, it was possible to buy replacement interrobang keycaps and typefaces for some Smith-Corona typewriters.[5] The interrobang was in vogue for much of the 1960s, with the word interrobang appearing in some dictionaries and the mark itself being featured in magazine and newspaper articles.
blahblahblah, basically:

Friday 18 February 2011

18/02- Hello Procrastination.

Hey!
It's Friday!
Finally! The half term..
Time to relax and procrastinate, and not do the twenty odd pieces of homework I have been set..
And, on the topic Of relaxing, I am going to go kick off my shoes and have a nap; see you in an hour, or three.. or five.
I have whipped out my summer mix-tape (well mix-CD, but that doesn't sound cool, does it?), and it just makes everything better; Hurry up summer, I miss you.


Oh yeah; this is so hilarious :
Silly Timothy<3.
Off to mop up a big spill are we? Surely you don't need ALL that tissue paper! Greedy!
It's things like that that Timothy does that makes me smile (I am not sure if that's Right.. too many 'that's? )

Thursday 17 February 2011

17/02 - Chemistry Practical.

Hey!
So, today was fairly dull, but still, I was actually quite content all day; which was an interesting feeling.
I am not sure what I would prefer; being content, or being up and down and experiencing the extremity's - Probably the latter, Content doesn't help you live life.
My chemistry practical went well (I think); this is based on the fact My teacher was asking what I got in my results to clarify with other students, and that she read my whole exam (probably isn't meant to but, I'm not going to complain) and didn't say anything other than 'Yeah, that's fine' etcetc.
Plus; I got to make things fizz and stuff so, that's all ways a plus.

I also went to some university talk thing this evening; which was fairly dull, but I guess it was quite informative (My parents both basically fell asleep.).

It is half term this Friday; I cannot wait, I really need this week off to chill and catch up with all my work (Namely the four or five math assignments I haven't even bothered looking at.. I am running out of excuses).

Oh; also we hit 2000 views the other day, that's quite awesome guys, thanks so much!.

Wednesday 16 February 2011

16/02- Hess' law.

Hey;
So today I have my Biology practical assessment, which went, well; Interestingly. It took me just under an hour to complete, and was beyond mundane. There is nothing interesting about water baths, milk substrate and Trypsin Enzyme..
So, now I have to 'revise' for my chemistry practical assessment, however I appear to have 'miss-placed' my notes, so this will be interesting.  All I know is it is on Hess' law. Gotta love Hess' law. ... .. *Cough*.
Something along those lines.

Also, today I made flap jacks!
Except, I had no maple syrup, so I used honey, And I wasn't sure on the recipe so I just melted and mixed a bunch of stuff together; but it tasted good, so doesn't matter.. right?. So good in fact, that I ended up eating half the mixture and only cooking the other half.


Yeah; they came out something similar (but obviously better) to these fellas.

Tuesday 15 February 2011

15/02- Art.

Hi;
Today was quite okay.

I miss art.
I think I am going to get back into drawing and painting like I use to, its so Therapeutic, and as they say ' A picture paints a thousand words'. I miss interpreting things through pencil, and letting thoughts flow through the lead.. I've never been a good drawer, but I also never cared; It's not like I want it as a career path, it's.. almost a means of escape, I can draw my own little world, and I can draw what I want, I can erase things and start over. I can stop, and pick off where I left off whenever I want.
No one ever sees my art, and that is the beauty of it. I have a huge stash of my photos no one knows about, and no one needs to; each photo capturing a memory, Though they might not mean anything to someone else; they could mean everything to another, and me. (For example; the photos as the 'banner' on my blog I took).

Just one of the photos I took for my art project a long while back; But I like it, it's simplistic.

Monday 14 February 2011

14/02- Shallow Interpretation.

Hey;


'  "What's the date today?"
Group of people: "FOURTEEEENTH. Gaw".  '
Yeah; Valentines at an all girls school = so not cool.


So today I woke up, and saw Timothy
(Visual reminder: )


And his cage was covered head to tow in bright red blood. Nice. I burst out in tears, and got him out and he was so panicky and traumatised he wouldn't stop running up and down and cuddling into me, coating my PJ top in bright red foot prints. His wheel was caked in blood, obviously so traumatised he just didn't know what to do.. after clearing his cage and washing everything I have put him in a clear plastic cage with no bars for him to climb, no wheel, no nothing other than food and water and his snuggle pouch. And then I came back home in a hurry to see him, and he was spotless.
Went downstairs to ask if my mum had given him a bath, and she looked at me in complete confusion; Obviously Timothy had licked the blood all off, or something equally disgusting. 
(The reason I didn't is because if you run a cut under water you're just washing away all the cells that heal the wound, so you would basically bleed to death.). So that was one big sigh of relief, he is fine now, but still wont stop cuddling me. 


"I'm not anti-romance, or anti-love. I'm just anti the commercial bastardisation of love."
A great quote from the anti-valentines day in Edinburgh yesterday.
I am not a fan of valentines day; Firstly, why should you have a day to show someone you love them? If you truly loved them, you would let them know every day.. 
Also mainly because it is so commercialised, it gains the 2nd most income than any other holiday.
Also it just rubs the fact your single into single people's faces.. so not cool..
I guess, it was a nice idea; until companies got a hold of it.
I could rant about this day for quite a while, and go into quite detail, but for any of you loved up optimistic's..


So viewers;
Happy Unimaginative, consumerist-oriented, manipulative and shallow interpretation of romance Day.
 

Sunday 13 February 2011

13/02- Stats.

Good day;
Right so today I took a sneaky look at my stats for this blog.
Turns out My blog has been viewed from eleven different countries, that's quite funky but also creepy at the same time..


United Kingdom

Denmark

United States

Canada

Japan

Ukraine

Switzerland

Croatia

South Korea

Lebanon

Seychelles


(copied and pasted that and have tried for the last five minutes to get rid of the weirdly large gaps between each country, sorry I couldn't).
S'quite cool.
Also that 12% of my views are off of Iphones; Who are all these rich people viewing my blog? Haha.
And seeing as I now know a fair few of you who read this have Iphones, I am now going to share my dislike of them.



(Not going to lie, googling smashed Iphone came up with some pretty nice pictures.. unless you reallllly love Iphones then it;s probably like googling dead kitten.)
...
..... (SERIOUSLY GUYS DO NOT GOOGLE IMAGE DEAD KITTEN. I am scarred for life.)
I just can't stand them; They are only good for their pointless apps, in which you might as well get an Ipod touch for anyway.. I hate touch screen, flip, slide, swivel etcetc you name it. Plain old brick phone for my please. Preferentially with a qwerty keyboard.
Seriously, everyone type QWERTY it is so fun. Qwertyqwertyqwerty.
Insane, that entertained me for at least six seconds.
G'bye.

Saturday 12 February 2011

12/02- Warmth.

Hey;
Today feels like Spring; and I love it.
I have the sun shining through the window, onto my back. And this is a feeling I so sorely miss, and it has automatically brightened up my mood.


I have got out my Summer tunes and gosh, the memories and good times they bring back, Just brings a smile to my face.
Happy-go-lucky tunes are just too good.
The rocket Summer. You will forever be my summer songs - Best band ever? Possibly? No. Definitely.
The lyrics are perfection, and I couldn't not love any single one of their songs; not to mention the fact he has the voice of an angel.



It's a beautiful day,
Now I'll be ok now that you're not away.
Yesterday was a terrible day;
But now that you're here I'm okay,
Cause you don't know how much I, I need you
Please don't go
You're so wonderful
This I swear, this I know

You, oh you, every single thing you do
I'm so proud of you
What you do
When you do the things you do
They're so you

So thanks for your help;
You shine so bright,
You are the star that's in my sky,
And I am yours and you are mine.
♥.

Thursday 10 February 2011

10/02- Raindrops.

Hi,
Today I got soaked head to toe by a car that drove past me; Did not appreciate it to be honest.

I have a love hate relationship with the rain; dependant on my mood.
Sometimes I just love to sit and watch it; well more listen. The sound of the rain drumming on windows, trees and rooftops is quite something. Watching the raindrops race down the window, and trickle off leaves. And that cool touch on your skin as it runs down your face; hiding any tears. Drenching you; washing away your feelings.
Other times it is cold and harsh. Freezing me to the bone and soaking my clothes until they are heavy, adding to the weight on my shoulders.

11/02- Here's to the heart breakers.

Hello;
Another average day, of course.
Walked passed a guy with his hood up holding a bunch of golf clubs, walking all.. well with what looked like a limp. But I think it was a "cool" walk. Apparently.

Here's to all the Heart breakers,
For keeping us around whilst keeping our confidence down.
So Light a match under my paper heart;
Watch it burn and my tears flow,
You have made me scared to ever fall in love again..
But I know this feeling, with the constant butterflies, and it just won't go away.
I hate it and love it, and wish you knew it, and felt it too.
I don't want to fall for you, because I know you won't be there to catch me.

Wednesday 9 February 2011

09/02- Sleepy.

Hey;
Today was, well. Fairly dull and Uneventful as normal.
I am still lacking good moods and anything to write about.

I'll fill this gap with a grown up Timothy.
He is sleeping on my lap at the moment.

08/02- A wonderful find.

Hi;
Oh I wish my life was not so incredibly dull and repetitive so I would have something interesting to tell you! Alas I do not.
I wish I didn't have to post telling you nothing every day because I just have to post something; otherwise my titles just would not work and it would look like I mess!
Plus it looks nice.
Plus, well hey, It's a little challenge on how many times I can write about nothing.

Today I had a double free; well, I wouldn't normally but there are so many people in my class not here that they cancelled the lesson. Boo yaaaah!
So I spent it very productively.. ... .. On BBC Iplayer of course.
And I realised I wonderful, simply fantastic thing.
Being human is Back.

Yesyesyes. Gosh; You do not know how much I am in love with that programme, it is simply insane.
And you just have to go watch it; give it a chance ( I have never been able to describe it with out it sounding like a pile of poop). It is the best series (bar doctrinaires of course!) BBC have ever made!
I watched all three episodes of the third series today, why were there no adverts for it? Well, probably because I don't really watch TV. But still. I am not sure if series one and two are on BBC Iplayer still; I hope so.
(I wish I got paid for this plug; that'd be cool, Because I know all of you are now going to go watch it, Right?)
Oh; and if I haven't persuaded you; The Main character is pretty attractive.
Bet you want to watch it now!.


Boom.
I'm out.

07/02- See yesterday.

See title.

Sunday 6 February 2011

06/02- ...

Hi.
No entry today.
Sorry.
Well; Actually I'm not.
No good mood = Rant that's not worth it or relevant to any of you.

Saturday 5 February 2011

05/02- Overslept.

Hello Everyone;
Another mediocre day; I intended on going into town and buying incredibly needed (no sarcasm) new shoes; mine have eligibly fallen to pieces.
However, I over slept. Well, I say over slept, I lied in my bed doing nothing for far too long before I bothered getting up.
Sigh..

Friday 4 February 2011

04/02- Absent minded.

Hi;
Today is a Friday.
Yet again I cannot recall what I did today; It was not very interesting and not a lot occurred.
Sorry; I wish I had some better news..
Apologies for my absent minded entries, My life is a dull repetitive flow.

Thursday 3 February 2011

03/02- Hiccup.

Hello;
The temperature keeps changing or I am ill. Because throughout the day I have been having 5 minute intervals of being either completely boiling or freezing cold; I am not enjoying it.
Also I had killer hic-cups throughout the day; and not those funny little ones; I get serious painful, top what I am doing, start crying, my chest is imploding and crushing itself kind of hiccups. Not. Fun.
Lets google what causes hiccups; I will do anything to prevent these monsters!
'But sometimes the diaphragm becomes irritated. When this happens, it pulls down in a jerky way, which makes you suck air into your throat suddenly. When the air rushing in hits your voice box, you're left with a big hiccup.'
Well. that sure was fun. Nothing to really prevent them then.


On other news, I had another day of boring nothingness; where I did nothing but school. Oh the joy of school.
So well, that is not really news.


I want summer back, and the feel of the sun on my skin.
I want all the good times summer brings, and the memories that they create.





Wednesday 2 February 2011

02/02- Deja Vu?.

Hi;
today was boring, and I can't even remember if what happened today actually happened today, or if it happened yesterday; or even if it ever happened and my mind is just trying to pretend I am doing something with my life.

Therefore I can't really say what I did today, as I myself don't know.

That's all I have time for now really.
See you tomorrow!.

Tuesday 1 February 2011

1/02 - Shipwrecked.

Hi;

It is funny how one thing can change your mood so rapidly and dramatically. And how it ruins the rest of the entire day; no matter what else happens that day.
Another mediocre day has slipped past, oh which I cannot really recall what occurred throughout it.
It was dull.

It is nice how certain people exist who can put a smile on your face just by saying hello; How easy they are to talk to and how a conversation can be held for hours without it ever getting boring. I'm grateful these people exist. But, these people never really know how much they make me smile, or how much they really mean to me. It is perfectly lovely to be able to have a nice care-free conversation about whatever comes to mind once in a while. So I guess this is my way of just putting it out there; thank you everyone who can hold decent care-free conversations!

I wish things were easier done than said; however this is of course not the case. No matter how hard I try I put myself through the same old shit every day, and frankly I cannot help it. There are certain people you would go to extreme lengths for, and the majority of those people do not even know it; and you don't want them to know it. Because for all you know, they have moved on and don't even remember you; whilst your still all caught up and longing, waiting. Waiting just for something. Anything. But deep down, you know that something will never come; and you hang on every word they might say, just for a grasp at a last chance for hope. Never.
Its a vicious cycle I can't get out of.
Like a ship wreck out  at sea; and you are the ocean, Engulfing me.

Goodnight.

Monday 31 January 2011

31/01- Goodbye January.

Dear January;

You have been a mediocre month, however a fair amount better than several of those last year, Go you!
However, You do not compare to Last year's January by far, sorry; But last year's January really was simply amazing, and I'd trade you for that January any day (or month as it seems).
So thank-you; for allowing a new start, and allowing that start to start off quite okay!
Lets face it January, it could have been worse, right?
You have given me one or two good memories and have allowed me to look forward to the rest of the year; you have really got me focused on what needs to be focused on. You have given me a lot of time to think; and that has really helped, so thank you.
You have really been a roller coaster month; with a lot of emotional ups and downs, but all of which worth it in the end; You have left me not willing to get off just yet. And although you are now over, this ride is not, but thank you for your part journey whilst it has lasted.
Although you have been awfully cold, I guess that isn't your fault, I will have to blame the Earth's rotation and gravity towards the sun for that, though you could have at least persuaded some clouds to move on and allow some sunlight.
Looking back on all my posts, there is not much I can pick out as being super amazing about you; you have given me a new favourite piercing, some simply amazing t shirts(which arrived today might I add!), however the exam period was really not appreciated.

So yes; Thank you January.
You have been wonderful.

Yours Sincerely,
Louise.
x

Sunday 30 January 2011

30/01 - Lazy day.

Hey everyone;
I didn't do a lot today, Ben came round and visited Timothy which was quite awesome.
I ate a pot of re-freezed melted ice cream; which was.. interesting to say the least.
And then fell asleep for the majority of the remaining day.
also; I have a biology assignment I haven't done due in tomorrow, and I have also lost it.
Hm.

Saturday 29 January 2011

29/01 - Questions.

Hello;
Well, Today I did a whole bunch of nothing.
So that is that; I guess it is time to fill this entry with a whole bunch of waffle and philosophical shit. (Excuse the language).
I can't write when I am listening to music; especially not to music as good as Greg Holden; Singing along just makes me feel that little bit better. His lyrics and genius and are just.. un-describable.
I'm thinking of you; are you thinking of me too?

And so I shall let my mind wonder, and words flow;
So many questions are always left un-answered. And so I question why; but that too is also left un-answered.
Un-answered questions just lead to more un-answerable questions; and those original un-answered questions are often answerable. The problem being, the person whom you ask. Why is it they specify on not answering certain questions; and why is it those questions you ask, that they do not feel there is any need to answer; is beyond important to you?. And why is that they just cannot see that? More questions. Questionably un-answerable questions. The majority of the times It is unexplainable as to why you need an answer to that question, and as to why it is so important that they answer. I now come to believe, it is impossible anyone will ever explain, answer or understand this. But can I accept that new found fact?
I don't believe I can, and frankly, why should I?
Questions deserve to be answered, why else would they originally be asked? Questions are formed by a spike of interest, or lack of understanding, a need to know more; and why should you deprive someone of that.
Though the answer may cause grief, pain or hurt, sooner or later that un-answered question will lead to more questions; possibly un-answerable; and that will just amplify the pain or hurt.
Un-answered questions leads the mind to wonder freely. And the longer the mind wonders; the more answers it unveils; the more extreme it drifts from the true answer, the more pain and hurt the mind under-goes. The mind often diverts to the worst-case-scenario when not given an answer - 'why else would someone not answer?' And that is unfair.
I accept that not all questions can be answered; and that does not particularly bother me.
It is more that people do not attempt to answer them, do not try.

Why?.
Who?
What?
Where?
When?.

28/01 - A decent Day.

Hi guys;
Today is Friday.
I love Fridays; weekend is near, only three lessons, and no homework needs to be done.
Today I had double math and Chemistry, all of which was mediocre.
Then all my school friends and I (Bar one who joined about ten minutes before I left). All walked to a friend's house and we played a board game called " The game of Life" I think? Anyway, more importantly, I won. And I never win.
Then we started watching Knocked up; which is a must-see film; and about 5 minutes in guys just started appearing every 5 minutes or so, killing the "girls night in" but no one cared anyway. Then we ordered Piza, I ate, then I left for babysitting.
Had to move the sofa forward because I have such bad Eye sight, and Ben came and bought ice cream with him which was awesome. I bought all my text books with me (which is a lot) but only did two math questions, so it was a bit of a waste; the TV , after being able to now see it, distracted me.
Got back at half one; and am now writing this;
Good night!

Thursday 27 January 2011

27/01 - What am I to You?.

Hi;
I think I have injured my wrist; it has been feeling like a weak sprain for days and now it's getting annoying because it is my writting and it just constantly hurts and is amplified when I move it or lift things. Joy.
Have you ever questioned things, yourself, people, life?.
What if's , maybe's, unanswerable questions.
Why am I still here?
How can I still feel like this?
Why wont it go away?
What am I doing wrong?
Will this ever change?
Will it ever go away?
What are you thinking?
Why are you doing this to me?
When did this all start to go wrong?
Could it ever change?
Could it ever go back to how it was?.
What am I to you?.

Wednesday 26 January 2011

26/01- z

I hate the way you're nice to me,
And the way that you are fair;
I hate the way you talk to me
I hate it when you care.

I hate you're stupid letters
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much, My eyes run dry,
Am I completely Blind?

I hate the way you're never wrong,
The way you read between the lines;
I hate it when you make me smile,
Even worse when you make me cry.

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact you'll never be,
But most of all, I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

                               ♥.

25/01- y

Today I was ill again.
-

24/01- x

Today I was ill.
That's All.

Sunday 23 January 2011

23/01- Julia Nunes - You Were.

You were.
If you were the ground beneath my feet
I'd find a way to float or just walk so gently
If you were the star in the night sky
I'd figure out how to fly or just walk with my head high

They pushed me around, but they haven't knocked me down
Flowers die, so I'll plant a pot inside
Babies grow and buy their own homes
To fill with families of their own

If you were the clouds that bring the shadows
The dark won't make me sad, though I miss you
I'll make shadow puppets and I'll laugh
Because I know you'd love it
And I'll cry a little too

If I were God, I'd destroy all religion
Abolish all divisions and leave the world with love
And I'd probably take you up with me
Because we're selfish here above

Yeah they pushed me around, but they haven't knocked me down
Flowers die, so I'll plant a pot inside
Babies grow and buy their own homes
To fill with families of their own

We've lost a lot, but we've got much more
And if you need comfort, that's what we're here for
And if the ground shall crumble, and the stars shall fall
I will hold your hand and we'll both stand tall

They pushed me around, but they haven't knocked me down
Flowers die, so I'll plant a pot inside
Babies grow and buy their own homes
To fill with families of their own

I'm not so scared, I'm not so scared
I'm not so scared, I'm not so scared .




22/01- Julia Nunes - Odd

My foot's asleep and so is my brain.
If I'm in pain then I dont feel it,
my face should reveal it.
I am grinning as they're cutting me in half, and all I can do is laugh.

I am cold unfeeling and odd
and you should thank god
that we are on separate sides of the state. Hope you're okay
at least I gave you something to hate

I am frantically flailing, woozy inhaling these fumes that won't put me to sleep.
Taking drugs that wont cure me, so I'll just stay pure please relinquish those secrets you keep

I am cold unfeeling and odd
and you should thank god
that we are on separate sides of the state. Hope you're okay
at least I gave you something to hate.



Odd

Friday 21 January 2011

21/01- TGIs

Hi;
I have no time to write this; as I have only just got back home, but I want to make sure I get it done before it changes to the 22nd!
I had my last exam today, and it was better than expected.
I went to TGI Fridays with a bunch of awesome people.
The end!.

Thursday 20 January 2011

20/01- Sigh.

Hello;
And so another dreary day has passed; thank God.
Today was a whole bunch of boring uneventful nothing; Had math during lunch, mm five period day...
Then geography last, and with my exam tomorrow you'd think we would do something more productive than describing, annotating and such a peanut-butter and jam sandwich; all it achieved was a few tummy grumbles on my behalf. Oh, and a realisation of " oh shoot, I really haven't done any revision". Though, my theory is, I wont learn anything in the little time I have left now, so what's the point?! Right?.
I have a ton of work due in for Monday, so there goes my nice relaxing-ish weekend after all of my exams.
Also; all those silly year 11's and 10s complaining about their stupid GCSE exams are really annoying me this week, no one cares. Seriously. I never complained THAT much, it's just ridiculous, I'll swap one of my exams for four of yours.  "There was a freaking 4 mark question on my math paper! Oh my goshhh!!!11one!1". Ugh. I get twelve markers on mine; get over it. "What did you put for that multi choice..". Need I say anything?.

So, one more exam, then TGIs, It's going to be luuuuuuuush; cannot wait. Though I may be walking home all the way from Reading as the train wont be running as it will be too late, and my mum broke the car.. so yes. Fun.

I wish I could just read what you are saying; let alone between the lines, I just don't get you and your mind.

Night.

Wednesday 19 January 2011

19/01- Shooting Star.

Hey everyone;
For the last 3 days I have been thinking it is Friday. And it upsets me when I realise it isn't; not even close. Because then all my exams will be out the way, and I will have the weekend all to do a bunch of nothing. Thank god. I cannot wait.
So, We hit a thousand views yesterday. The big triple 'O. That's fairly awesome, thanks guys!
On other news, Greg Holden makes me melt, his voice is perfection. He solves all my problems, calms my mind like nothing else. His lyrics are indescribable, his voice is just so natural it is beautiful. He isn't as famous as he deserves to be, the world just is not fair! Oh. and he has a beautiful face, and sexy facial hair ;).
Greg Holden - She's got Something
Mmmm.
Though, I prefer his first album: A word in edgeways<3.
I'm hoping to see him this April on the 21st in London, would be a dream come true.
School was un-eventful today so, not much not say about that, becoming more and more worried about my geography exam each day, but well, it will soon be over right?.

You know, that feeling like something is just.. not there. You can't quite put your finger on it, but nevertheless it is there eating away at you.
Or when you feel yourself biting your tongue when talking to someone before you let everything loose, because you just can't cope with the outcome, and the pressure of not being able to talk to a single person about it, you just do not know what to do.
I wish I was a star up in the night sky; where everyone could see me shine my brightest, and no one can see my faults because I am too far away; too far away for anyone to touch me, to hurt me, to break me. And then when I die, and fade; I become a symbol for people to wish on, to give hope.
I wish I could give hope.

Goodnight World.

Tuesday 18 January 2011

18/01- Uneventful.

Hello;
I assume you have read the title, and that basically sums up my day.
Ele forced me into geography revision during my free period (which went surprisingly well) but it was more an interrogation, which has now scared me about my exam.
 Timothy refrained from pooping and peeing on me all day; though he did bite me (I had held food in my hand before hand though so, I probably smelt yummy to him..)
My entries just get shorter and shorter.. My life is so Uneventful.

Night.

Monday 17 January 2011

17/01- Pure laziness.

Hi;
Today was uneventful, as most school days are.
Biology; free (Hi-light of my day to be honest, chatted with friends about a lot, and it was great conversation, if not fairly random). And then 'Healthy living'. I'm doing ceramics this term, I miss art so much! I despise clay work, but I'd do anything for an hour in the art dept.; haha.
Then I had c2 Math; mm. Logarithms and exponentials..
Lunch; and then started M3 in Chemistry.
Oh, and not to forget the most joyous and fun part of my day; what I live for - Geography after school lesson. All the cool people go.. (Mainly because it's basicly compulsory for the whole 12 of us in our year who take geography). But this will all end (sadly) after my geography exam on Friday.
I bought all my art coursework home today; stole my final piece off the wall, hope art don't mind!
I might upload a picture of it at some point; though it's more something to be seen in person, and a photo would just make it look terrible - It is a 3D heart threaded with flowers and fabric etcetc.
Timothy has a wheel now. Maybe he will be less fat now; though currently he is scared of it.. *sigh*.

Goodnight.

Sunday 16 January 2011

16/01- boredom.

Hey;
Today I attempted to revise Geography.
And that is all.
Oh; I also cleaned out my hedgehog's cage, and changed his bedding to kitchen roll cause he makes too much of a mess and this is suggested for hogs:).
He doesn't like the fact he cant dig in it, and spent the last half an hour ripping it all to shreds. Lovely.
Day two of nape piercing:
It's beyond sore. But bareable. Like a constant aching.
Yay.
G'bye.

15/01- Nape.

Hi guys;
Today was quite awesome.
I went into reading with Benjamin and we went straight to the piercing parlour in town, where I sat waiting to get my nape done. Then this police man casually came in and we were both like. What. Well. That's a good sign. And he was upstairs for a while (where tattoos and piercings get done) and then he came back down, but he was just like " Hi guys, see you later (To the receptionist)" So I assume it wasn't anything bad. 
And I was basically pooping myself; I watched a few you tube videos which made things a bit disconcerting.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CbahUvZzYcQ
(FYI That's not me, That's just one of the many videos I watched)
Mmm..
So yes; I got it done, And it didn't hurt as much as I was expecting, which is good I S'pose. Still hurt like a bitch though. (Excuse my language).
Here it is! :
I love it!

Anyway, Before that I had a big bandage thing on my neck:

Which got me a few odd looks.
Then Ben and I went to Nandos for lunch. which was incredibly awesome and yummy.
Then we went home and watch Ten things I hate about you, which is quite a decent film I believe.
And thennnn I had a very long nap.
And thennnnnnn I walked home.
I feel like a 10 year old writing a little story with the amount of " and then"s I just put in; sorry!.

So yes; That was my day.
It was awesome.

Friday 14 January 2011

14/01- The game

Oh hello There;
The Game.
You just lost it.

If you don't understand that, goggle it, it is a great conversation starter.
I just had to be reminded again to right this by a certain Will Davison; So thanks for that!

Today was Friday (if you didn't realise); Dull, dull Friday.
Another day where I have frankly, done nothing.
I had three free periods where all I did was text people and paint my nails - productive.
The most exciting thing today was receiving a package; and then being disappointed when I opened it up to find my C2 Math module book.. *sigh*.
I bought four new tees from my Favoritest  store ever this morning/late last night.
Here they are:


1st: Animals from extincted- undead.
2nd: Phobias ( The far right top is the back of the tee)
3rd: dot to dot robot! The  far right, bottom is the t shirt in the dark! (Oh yeah, it glows ; )  )
4th: Zombie dance. haha.

Actually beyond excited; they should arrive in.. 1-4 weeks ( they are from America and I got the cheapest shipping because I am poor).

So, Yes.
Nape piercings tomorrow; Scared yet beyond excited!

Well there's silence now;
There's nothing more to gain,
And it isn't right if I can't run away,
Because it kills the moon;
When there's nothing left to say,
And all I can do,
Is sit and let the air speak for you.

-Parachute.

Byee.

Thursday 13 January 2011

13/01- Un-describable

Hi;
I am only writing this because I got reminded by someone in conversation; so blame them for this post.

Today was long, very long. Starting with waking up late, with around four hours sleep on and off, I was just not in the mood. Yet, I still dragged myself to school looking like the living dead to get to my Chemistry exam.
Which, I will not go into, But lets just say; Re-take. It is un-describable how I currently feel; All emotion just washed; not just because of Chemistry, but other pretences.
And I had no study periods, meaning I had a full day of lessons. Ugh. Hello new syllabus for the next modules/chapters.. basically next exam! I look forward to tomorrow, three free periods, statistic math (A math lesson I actually enjoy.. *sigh*) and then Chemistry, another lesson I look forward to starting the new syllabus for. And then, The weekend. Thank God.
Finally a break, oh wait. No. I have another exam to revise for; Geography. Well; another exam to fail should I say. I haven't even looked at anything geography related, I have been too focused on my other subjects (bar math) to even care. But now I have to cram everything in the next few days ready for my exam. This is the life.
Though I am going into town Saturday to get my Nape pierced.
It will look a tad like this:
And then like this after I have done my second one ( After this one has healed):

So yeah. Like a little after exam present.
For anyone who doesn't know, I love piercings. I have twelve, had thirteen (removed my smiley due to fear of gum damage.. haha), so nape will be my thirteenth.


I wish People could keep some thing to themselves. I don't understand their thought process, but obviously hurting others and consequences does not come into play.

Anyway; That's really all for today.

Wednesday 12 January 2011

12/01- Revision. Again.

Hello;
Today I did more revision, surprise surprise.
Hence why this is going to be a short entry, because frankly, I did nothing.
I left school at period 2; I'm a rebel with good intention.. I left to revise... And actually came back into school afterwards for an after-school revision lesson; so that cancels out that 'rebellious' thing. I signed out saying I had the dentist because at the time I couldn't remember how to spell Orthodontist and no one else had written it in the late book yet. So. Yeah.
Chemistry exam tomorrow morning; In ten and a half hours to be precise. Shoot; shouldn't have thought that, Now I am panicking. Oh well; I feel, uh, Slightly.. And that's a BIG slightly, confident with Chemistry. Its the subject I get the most consistent marks, but it this is the exam (other than math) that I have revised the least on.
Wish me luck; I'm going to need it!
Nightttt.

Tuesday 11 January 2011

11/01- Hectic

Greetings one and all.
Yes. I know I haven't posted in several days but; I have had my exams.
And yes, I know that isn't much of an excuse; Sorry!
But now I have done my biology and math exam all I have left is Chemistry on Thursday and Geography on the 21st, then that's all my subjects done! well.. Other than the next half a year more of exams etc. of course.
I am fully confident I am going to drop math after this year, however I did quite enjoy my statistics lesson today; Maybe because  I did 2 pages of writing and no pure math. This course looks more promising than pure math that's for sure.
Anyway; That's all for now, G'bye.

10/01- see 09/01

See below.
Really.

09/01- See 08/01

See below.

08/01- Stress

Hi guys; I know this isn't the 08th but, well, Yeah tough luck.
On this day I did nothing but well. revised. And was too busy and stressed to leave a blog.
Sorry!

Friday 7 January 2011

07/01- Yawn.

Helloo again,
I keep missing days due to my ever so hectic life right now.. *ahem*.
I get up, walk to school, have school, stay behind for revision, walk home late, colapse on my bed and sleep for an hour, revise more, bed.
And I feel horribly ill all the while..
As well as constantly sleepy, I've never yawned so much before!
Not to mention I am basicly babysitting my hedgehog; who knew it could poop and eat so much.. Haha. Though, I still love him.
Good night!.

Tuesday 4 January 2011

04/01- Back to School.

Hello again;
today I went back to school; ofcourse packing for monday (it is tuesday for anyone as dim as me..) I had double math to start (kill me now) and then biology, free, and a talk about alcoholism for an hour..
My tonsilitis; I believe, is back *sigh*, and no better timing, less than a week until my exams, and it already hurts to swallow.
In the talk I had to stand as there was no more seats or room, after twenty minutes, I felt faint, like I was about to throw up all my insides every where, and my vision completely blurred into nothingness; hoorah. I took to the closest exit - a fire door, and took deep slow breaths; seemed to work.
Then I stayed behind for two hours to revise.. *yawn*.
Then I went home and Ben came round:).
Played with my baby hedhehog for god knows how long, discussed a few books, and then it was time for Ben to go home.
Now I am in bed writting this very last minute, when I would much rather sleep!
So I shall try do just that;
Goodnight.

Monday 3 January 2011

03/01- Zzz.

Greetings!
Today I slept in, well thats an understatement.. and read a book until around five. Then I had a shower and Ben came over. And the my neigbors. And then a few family friends. And we had dinner and chatted.
Then we watched the newer version of charlie and the chocolate factorie (after m neighbor's comment I saw willy Wonka as a very close resembulance to Micheal Jackson.. *sigh*).
Then I was forced to show my family friends my pets; one my one I took them down stairs - hedgehog, leopard geckos, and finally my corn snake. Couldn't really bring the fishy, haha.
Currently I am having a panic attack as my exams are in exactly one week today.. Kill me now, I am beyond stressed.. I just cannot sleep!
So, good night, I am off to carry on being restless in my bed..
P.s; my computer is stilllll broken; *deep sigh..*.

02/01- Six hours later

Hello;
I know it is technically the third, but it is two thirty AM and I havn't gone to bed yet, therefore I am writting this as my second day entry, I don't want to have missed a day this early on in the year!
The reason I have forgotten to write is because I did nothing much today.
I drove back from scotland, and six hours later I was back home; then I went to colllect Timothy(my baby hedgehog <3 ). It was lovely seeing Ben (who was looking after him) again, though it was only breif, and then I went home. I had timothy out and he didn't poop asss much (thank god...) and he was lovely, but seemed bigger, and like I missed him growing up. All his baby quills that were just pokeing through last time I checked had grown, but he still dropped twelve baby quills that I saw of today, so he isn't fully grown yet!
And thats about it; see you tomorrow/ later, however you wish to look at it..

Saturday 1 January 2011

1/01- A new Start.

Hello,
welcome to twenty eleven. Quite frankly that has no ring to it at all; I miss the sound of two thousand and one-nine.. Its sounded much better.. Summer of '09.. Summer of '11 sounds so stupid.
If you are supposed to start as you mean to go on.. I have not started impecibly well. I have a feeling this year will be boring and uninteresting. However, this year is a new chapter, if you will, a new blank canvas, and I may paint, sketch, draw, colour what I want upon it. Of course my analogie only works to an extent, other people could paint on thick black lines if they wish, or in a less pessimistic view, maybe someone will come and fill my canvas with an amalgamation of colours.. I wish.

Today I did nothing.
Quite literally. I woke up; depressed from last nights lack of anything, and had breakfast. And that was it.
Up until now I have done nothing.
I have been in my room since this morning doing nothing.
Nothing but revise and read New Moon.. And I have now finished it.. it only took me 4hours to read it. But, hey, lets not get into how considerably bad the book is.

I am now waiting for dinner; having not eaten since breakfast as my deserted me off on a long walk and didnt come back until under an hour ago. I am apparently having steak pie - a scottish tradition.
I am fond of pie.

Anywho; I am going to have a nap whilst I wait for dinner, bye.

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